D

Dabravina (Bosnia), 143, 144

Dan (Serbian tourist in Marrakech), 129–131

Darko (HVO expert killer), 8, 169–171, 173, 196, 198–200

Dastansko (Bosnia), 161, 163

David (photographer), 88, 238–239

Dayton Peace Agreement (1995), 296, 313–315

the dead, 5–7, 244–245, 306

death squads, 140

Delic, General Rasim, 315

Dina (wounded child), 227, 230–231, 311–312

Dispatches (Herr), 66

Dobrinja (Bosnia), 318, 319

droog, defined, 19

Dudakovic, General Artif, 216–218, 220–221, 299, 301, 312–313, 314

Dudayev, Dzokokar, 242

E

"educating fire," 11, 16, 33

Ekberg, Major Daniel (Swedish), 145, 148

Endre (friend), 10–11, 20–21

the enemy, advantages of living close to, 9–10

Englishmen, Bosnian view of, 52

equal guilt, 7, 94, 111

Eric (mercenary), 44–48, 49–50, 55, 88

Esa (13-year-old Chechen fighter), 256–257

Essaouirira (Morocco), 129

ethnic cleansing, 135, 137–138, 140, 157

Eton, 64–65, 78

evil, 7, 111, 170

F

fascism, 7

federation of Muslims and Croats, 197

Fish Head Gang, 175–178

France, UN troops, 220–221, 227, 231

funerals, being shot at during, 31–32

G

Ganic, Nehru, 155, 286–287

Gilles (photographer), 90–91, 312

glossary of terms, in frontmatter

Gorazde (Bosnia), 205

Gornji Vakuf (Bosnia), 75–76, 81, 84, 93, 141, 175, 178

Goyty (Chechnya), 238, 249, 250, 252

Grbavica (Bosnia), 9

Great Britain

foreign policy, 182

public opinion, 279, 281, 283

UN troops, 81, 84, 92–94, 98–100, 141, 154–155, 176, 194–198, 204–205

Grozny (Chechnya), battle of, 239–241, 243, 244–252, 253, 254–256, 258, 261

H

hatred, 8, 32, 70–71, 84, 98, 202–204

Herceg-Bosna, 86, 197

Hercegovina, Croatian nationalism in, 39, 86, 194

heroin, war and, 58, 183, 274–275, 295

Herr, Michael, Dispatches, 66

HOS (Croatian paramilitary forces)

affiliation, 29

ideology, 32

Marko (sniper), 29, 32, 33, 34, 35

hostages, 279, 294

human will, 260–261, 274

Hurd, Douglas, 112

HV (Croatian regular army), turning Muslim allies over to Serbs, 45

HVO (Bosnian Croat army)

battles (see Muslim-Croat conflict in Bosnia)

Bobovac Brigade, 140, 150, 154, 155, 157–158, 161, 163

Bozic, Kresimir, 150, 154, 155

HVO (Bosnian Croat army) (continued)

Darko (expert killer), 8, 169–171, 173, 196, 198–200

The Jokers, 8, 169

Muslim-Croat peace accord, response to, 197

The Pilgrims, 140

"Postman Splat" (gunner), 83, 202–203

Rajic, Ivica, 140, 149–150, 155–156, 157–158, 161

Red Cross lorry as cover, 49

soldier with ear in pocket, 72, 106, 108

soldier's suicide, 39–40

on Vance-Owen plan, 86

veterans, 57

weapons systems, prisoners as, 164–165, 171–172

I

Igman, Mount, 318, 320

Irma (Dina's mother), 227, 230–231, 232, 311

Isadora (friend), 13, 15

J

JNA (Yugoslav People's Army), 226

Johovici (Bosnia), 221

Jon (photographer), 250, 252

journalists, war correspondents

as determinants of action, 148–149

front line vs. rear echelon, 5, 66, 110–111, 157, 179, 228, 313

Loyd's relationship with other, 81–82, 104–105, 239

reports of food supplies, 167

as victims, 166, 308

Juta (BiH 502 Brigade), 297–298

Jute (Vitez godfather), 196

K

Kakanj (Bosnia), 155, 286

killing, as innate behavior, 141

Kisaljak (Bosnia), 139, 140, 156, 203, 284, 285, 288

Knin (Bosnia), 219

Kopljara (Bosnia)), 155

Krajina (Bosnia), 107, 113, 299

Kupres (Bosnia), 236

Kurt (journalist), 142, 149, 150, 152, 162

L

Lasva Valley (Bosnia), 81, 82, 98, 168, 171, 199

Lebed, Alexander, 261

Lela (friend), 121, 262, 264, 266

Leon (friend), 121, 263, 264, 275, 276–277

level killing fields, 7

lies in warfare, 110–111

the living, 6–7

Ljuba (friend), 116

London, 126

Loyd, Anthony

anger, 213

appearance, 6–7, 262

army service

desire to serve, 63–64

fear-less, 90

fond memories, 132–133

Gulf War service, 131–132

King's ROyal Rifle Corps, 66–68

loyalties, 205

arrests, 25–28, 44–46

in Australia, 65

Bosnia, decision to go to, 12, 13, 14, 59, 121–122, 186, 193, 207

Chechnya, decision to go to, 237

childhood and education, 60, 64–65, 186

corpses seen, memorable, 12, 30–31, 94–95, 96, 249

cynic, 126

the dead, fascination with, 5–6

death, fantasies about, 253

depression, 133–134

a dog, plans for killing, 204

dreams, 234–235, 261, 289–292

Loyd, Anthony (continued)

drug use

effects of, 267–268, 289–293

at Eton, 65

with friends, 121, 122, 129, 130, 263, 275–277

heroin, initiation into, 268–272

withdrawal, 7, 183–186, 272–274

family (see Loyd, Anthony, family of) [on this page]

girlfriend, 43, 124

godlessness, 6, 192, 207, 309

guardian, 318, 320

guises, 13, 54, 78, 88

hypocrite, 126

idealist, 111–112, 123

in Indonesia, 65, 268–272

interpreter, 229–231

learning Serbo-Croatian, 12–13, 305

learning to kill, 32, 34–35, 67

in London, 120–124, 133–136, 262–264, 320–321

in Marrakech, 127–131

mortal fear, 13–14, 89–91, 94, 148, 305–306

Muslim sympathizer, 111–112, 141, 142

mutilation, first seen, 31

outsider, 36–37, 154

parents (see Loyd, Anthony, family of) [on this page]

peace, 126, 186, 198, 266

photojournalist

capturing "moments," 109

death-defying, 90

guise, 14, 36–37, 249

sales, 80–81, 88, 104

training, 12, 135–136

psychoanalysis, 134–135, 136

rage, 151–152, 173, 204, 211

saving wounded child, 227–233, 311–312

self-confidence, 64–65, 81, 123

self-loathing, 36–37, 248–249

siblings (see Loyd, Anthony, family of) [on this page]

and suffering of others, 30–31, 104, 207

talismans, 126

tattoo, 126

in Thailand, 65

war

alienation from prewar life, 7, 43–44, 124

attraction to, 66, 136, 173–174, 186, 207, 303, 310

capture, fears of, 308–309

excitement of, 87

naïveté about, 16, 85, 131, 260

nostalgia for, 4, 8, 56

"seeing a war," 36–37, 154

war correspondent, 66, 103, 109–111, 205, 206, 220, 286–288

Loyd, Anthony, family of, 186

father

death and funeral of, 201–202, 206–213, 231

and Eton, 65

leaves home, 60

relationship with, 187, 188–193

German relatives, 63

grandfather, 62–63

grandmother, 59–60, 61–62, 63, 188

great grandfather (Adrian Carton De Wiart), 60, 61, 126

great uncle, 66

mother, 64, 123–124, 186, 187–188, 189, 206, 212

sister, older, 212

sister, younger, 123, 187, 188–189, 272–273

stepbrother, 192, 209

stepmother, 190, 191, 192, 208, 209, 212

Luc (mercenary), 49, 53, 55